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You can’t schedule creativity
Yesterday evening I came home from a tiresome shift at work, spoke to my Grandma, who is one of my favorite people in the whole world had poached eggs (she used to make them for me ) Around ten I was so tired my eyes were closing so bed seemed the best option.
The plan was to wake up early, take my car to the garage for a service and get in a run home. I would then do another work shift and have a nice two days off all to myself where I could paint and paint and paint. I was so looking forwards to having that time solely for making.
As soon as the light went out and my head hit the pillow, that was it, I couldn’t sleep, I tried all my usual methods to no avail. It was like my mind had picked that exact moment to start thinking about major life events, past and present. Ideas kept popping into my head and refused to go away. After a couple of hours I had to do something, so I wrote down all my ideas in the book I keep by my bed for such occasions, my mind instantly felt calmer, more restful. I wasn’t tired yet though, so did a little reading, it was past two when I finally got to sleep.
I’ve not been that tired today, even after my run, and looking back at my notes I actually had some pretty good ideas last night, worth losing sleep over?
So my point is that you can’t set a time for creativity, no plans, no times, no lists it just happens.
I think if I can learn to live with this and embrace creativity when it strikes I’ll be on the right track.
I will still be painting for the next couple of days, in between reading. I’m also going to try a facebook/twitter etc ban, if there’s one thing to stop creativity it’s seeing someone you barely know complaining that it’s raining, or someone was mean to them.
Oh yes and as much as I don’t like her, I like Gagas’ new song. Reminds me of country music, and I like country music.
Anyone on my wavelength?
Filed under Can't sleep, Restless, Thoughtful
Can’t sleep- here is everything on my mind
Tonight I planned for an early night, I was in bed and ready to sleep by ten o clock and I was so tired I thought sleep would come quickly- it did, for an hour. I woke up at 11, back to sleep until twelve and at one, when I realized the sand man wasn’t coming to visit, I turned to the internet in the hope of some answers.
Usually when I can’t sleep it’s because my mind is too full up of thoughts that there’s no room left for rest, and when I do get some shut eye, I dream about everything I have been trying to put off.
For example I have been dreaming for the past week (ish) about a boy I used to know, we had something going on and we slept together once but a couple of weeks later his dad died and he moved away, we kept in contact a little, but at the beginning of this year I decided to delete his number as we rarely spoke. A few months on and I’m regretting not being able to talk to him so I emailed an address that I have no idea if he still uses, I just want to know how he is…
Then there’s the other boy that I’m also having trouble not thinking about, and it feels like if it write it down it all becomes real, and I don’t think I’m ready for that. How am I supposed to know if he’s interested?
Other unrelated thoughts
I have to wait 8 more days to see the final harry potter
I want to be back in uni now, I’m not very inspired
What art do I even want to produce?
Am I even any good?
Need to hoover- hoover broken
Not comfortable but lucky that my bed base is not made out of rope, like the tudors
If this is all I have to complain about, I’m doing well
On the other hand, still need to do a budget because rent is expensive
I’ve gotten so used to living here on my own, what will it be like when people get back?
Do you see? All these things are going round and round, every now and then another random one pops up and start thinking about that.
Earlier when attempting sleep longer than an hour, I was Harry Potter and someone was trying to kill me- Ron was in on it, I hid under the cloak.
I dream more than other people, as far as I know from what other people tell me and internet answers, when I say this I mean to say I remember my dreams more that others. I also dream in colour most of the time, which again, is unusual. I sometimes have 6,7,8 dreams a night which I can usually remember most of, it is uncommon for me to have less than two that I remember, and these are most likely to be long dreams.
When I wake up, most mornings I feel like I have slept but not fully rested. Is this normal? It doesn’t seem so
What are your dreams like? Frequent?
I do a lot to make sure I sleep well, deep sleep oils, eye mask, lovely comfy bed and pillows, all electricity in the room has to be off and I know if it isn’t. Window usually open slightly so to be not too hot not too cold (you are more likely to have nightmares if you are too hot/cold)
On the other hand I have not had my reoccurring dream for months – yay! (It’s not pleasant)
My eyes are actually feeling tired, I hope I do get to sleep, but I’m now texting the boy I..well I’m texting him- not so good for restful sleep!!
What do you think?
Sleep well tonight
Filed under Can't sleep, Dreaming, Restless
UK Riots
Over the past night I have been shocked and outraged to see what has been happening around the UK. The question I keep asking is how people can just start ripping up the places they live without a second though.
It is actual madness, I’m watching the news and checking police updates but it does not seem real to me.
I have seen riots in other countries and as far as I know, they are all fighting for something. Freedom. Civil rights. Life.
What are these scum fighting for? Nothing, that’s what.
Okay, one man was shot by police which began the chain of events (starting with a peaceful protest), but as far as I can tell, he was endangering the lives of officers, what were they supposed to do?
A man being shot does not mean everyone should go and rip up their towns, setting fire to peoples homes and business, the family of the man have completely condemned the sickening behavior.
However, something good has come from these horrible events, a community spirit has risen with hoards of people meeting to clear up the mess. #riotcleanup
The police force across the country have been wonderfully brave, as have film crews and journalists, I do not envy the jobs they so.
One thing I will point out is the police force canceled all leave straight away, but it took David Cameron about three days to come back from his long summer holiday (the same goes for the rest of the government, they are returning tomorrow for ‘have a debate’ which I can’t see helping at all.
All that can be done now is to wait, watch and continue efforts to pull the country together for the right reasons, not for a pair of trainers.
There are a lot more issues I could raise such as the real reason this has happened, is it merely copycat behavior? But for now I want to continue finding out as much as I can.
Filed under Outrage
Finishing Happy Potter book 6
Well, I have just finished harry potter and the half-blood prince in about four days.
I have read all the books before and seen all the films bar the last one (which I am holding out to see until I have reread all the books)
I feel I need to get this down before my book excitement dies down (although with the next book being the final read, I’m sure it will just get better and better). To make someone feel like this, and it’s obvious I’m not alone- a worldwide phenomenon if I’m not mistaken, you must have an amazing talent. J.K.Rowling is a brilliant writer and I hope to continue appreciating these books for years to come.
PS I would like to point out that although I have read and watched the series, I am still worried about what will become of Hogwarts, Harry, and of course will Harry fight Voldermort?
Roll on book 7!!
Filed under Excited, Reading, Thoughtful
Struggling for inspiration
It’s been a busy week with my sister being here,
I finally have some time and want to do some painting.
I have done a quick one on paper which I quite like
But now I’m struggling to find a new subject to paint on a large canvas
I want something natural, like a sun set or some form of water, but all the pictures I look at I can’t help but think I would be copying them.
Help!
Filed under Thoughtful, Wondering
